With Gamal ..

Al Salam 3lykom

This me Al Sayed Gamal, and this is my first separate post after the very bad mood/period I experienced the last 20days ..

I’m here to say that I’m responsible of everything and I’s never feeling bad towards my decisions like now.

But, as usual I’ve nothing but keep moving forward ..

And and I’m writing this post as a part of new series called corrective reactions

[Reactions] used to be a -ve word but now it sounds to be the status of my life .. so I’ve to get used to that word ..

[Sorry] This also used to be a meaningful word to me but now, specially now .. I’m feeling that sorry isn’t enough to describe how sorry and how bad I’m feeling ..

[Trying again] a very famous quote is stating something like that “be the best or die TRYING ” ..
now, I’ve a very strong feeling that I may die trying ..

[Independent] Exactly what I need now… I though that leaving my place, my town, my position and may be my country will be helpful .. and not for only me… I believe now that just -ve added value that should disappear ..
you know what, I was that close from being 100% independent and I felt so happy, unless it wasn’t that easy .. but something pulled me back, next point..
[Facing my problems] I need to learn how to face my problems .. MY problems .. and to be independent isn’t to escape

so .. based on all the above points .. I need to be interdependant ..
to change with others ..
with others, the word I always thought to be a sign of traditional and solid thinking ..

Interdependency .. My very Obvious goal ..

I’m in a life changing program ..

and 2morow will be the agenda day ..
I’ve a very busy day starts 10 AM and ends hardly on 11 PM ..
so it’s about 13 hours ..

Today 12th August 2008 is a very critical day .. [9 days left]
and I’m intending to 100% achieve today tasks .. including Phone calls, meetings, my ordinary work 6:11 PM and my development work ..
without missing any prayers ..
without over dosage of fast food

I’ll report this agenda isA 2morow 13th of this month …
ya rab .. This is my first real test after the corrective reactions..

Salam ..